Could it be that I the purity in the sky should cast a discerning eye over my breeding stock of human worth my goods and chattels harvest of the earth?
Could it be that they have gone irrevocably astray despite my clear direction to follow my instruction my example to embrace peace and love as do I in heaven above?
Could it be that I master of earth and sky should punish the fear and loathing the hatred and the gloating in the name of God above despite my principle of love?
It is with regret that I realise my prophecy will not be believed it is with sadness that I see a world of unwanted hurt cannot be relieved into the apocalypse will fall one and all for want of not heeding my call
it is not for a lack of frequency that my message remains unreceived it is not for a deficit of clarity my warning languishes ill perceived
for none can learn from the evidence when there are none who wish to hear who from convenient comfort will attend to tales of turbulent doom as it draws near? who has the power to break the apathy of masses when the masses will not act on their fear?
and who will take the time to reflect after the dismal impact, who will shed a tear?
We recently had to evacuate three generations of our family from three households across northern and central Victoria. Due to multiple and extensive bushfires, we watched with anxiety as they flared and ebbed and flared again towards our various homes. Fortunately, we all returned to intact houses. Many were not so lucky.
As the climate situation gets worse, with every New Summer we feel the new fear rise again.
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It makes pleasurable sense to live in the country but I am apprehensive about what it means when the blistering sun and a searing north wind are set to scorch the earth when they rise again
I am scared of the new summer on days like these marked for worsening catastrophes where shimmering heat on the horizon it seems prefaces the burning of landscapes by fire destined to scour every countryside rise and glen I feel the new summer fear rise again
I am scared of the new summer as you should be when severe climate change dictates choice and activity
I watched him as we sat upon the deck of the sinking ship the stern about to dip our chairs starting to slip our hands white in their grip he wondered where we would be tomorrow
he stood as fires erupted upon the tilting deck walked around the wreck sought every way to check for escape that he did seek only to find himself on the rails of sorrow
the water now was rushing over both our cold wet feet with no sign of relief in sadness and in grief life’s surging wild thief he told me he wished well for his wife and children
I looked at him I took him into embracing arms no protection here from harm just wishing to disarm anxiety and alarm one last moment of loving calm when going under the waves was the only given
we held each other standing there on the edge of fading hope to the horizon we did look to the water of our grave cold and churning were the waves then into each others eyes resigned to our good byes we held hands before stepping forward
the last things I remember are treading water in my doubt the water in my mouth the imminent blackout wishing I’d never roamed my loved ones left at home wishing I’d never sailed slipping under as strength failed his tired smile as we fell that I forgot to tell him how much I loved him
then came the wings of rescue they winched me up into the sun I the chosen one the sky it turned to gold but I had lost my hold on my brother and my friend who supported me to the end all I could think was how much I’m going to miss him
it’s been ten watery years passing underneath my bridge I’m wasted and I’m damaged with nothing left to salvage I relive our time together the fractured brother tether brothers ever a pair ever together everywhere and here I am still left with no way of knowing
how I can go on without my brothers song days are dark and long I think it’s time I must be going underneath the waves my lonely soft parade in hope that I will find my brother left behind always on my mind I want to join him on death’s seas a rowing together across the waves nothing in it brave just our watery grave and our time together saved
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Dusk at the drop off, Mt Wombat, Strathbogie Tableland, Victoria.
I was loitering on the corner after friends had dropped me there I didn’t go nowhere because I was scared I felt it coming a fright and a fear as if it was my last year
and when it finally fell upon me the anticipated dread I wished I had stayed at home in my warm and cosy bed the devil in his black coat to me he came and said I’m gonna frame you
I looked around but I couldn’t see anything of a crime I waited there longer I waited some extra time there was nothing to give me a clue no flashing sign that my whole world was a turning
when she pulled up in her long bright shiny yellow hearse I avoided her stare as if it was a curse but eventually she prevailed with a promise to reimburse me for my trouble
we drove to the mountain right to the very top when we got there she made the hearse come to a stop right at the edge by a long steep drop I exclaimed I was scared of heights
she got out of the car came round and opened my door I didn’t see her coming cos I was looking at the floor she pulled me out with the strength of two or three or four and dumped me on the dirt by the barriers
I struggled as she prepared to throw me into the abyss but then she bent to give me my first Judas kiss I knew what was coming so I ducked and she missed I pushed her in the chest and she swayed backwards
little did I know that she would unbalance then I watched her teetering on the edge until when she fell to her death just as god sent me a message
he said to get out of there because things weren't looking pretty I didn’t need no message I as tore across the city my mind was in turmoil full of self pity I found a little hideaway a little dirty a little gritty and laid low until things blew over
ever since that day I’ve been creeping around the town all nervous and alone again I’ve been going round worried the cops would do me over and when I would be found but my life became fortunate and stable
the lord moves in mysterious ways around my little hangout but in my mind there really is no skerrick of a doubt he saved me twice from death and the devil without my ever understanding anyways how or about I ever got to be in so much trouble
What can you say our young assertive one with the voice of an innocent and every reason to come to the land of the people with the frozen tongues did you hear the voices trapped in the throats of the speakers the truthsayers the protesters the dumb and the seekers
what will you say my naive one as a voice for the reticent who want to save their home where no voices are heard and no listening is done did you crack the blank shields of the riot police abashing when your truth and your statements of the obvious were clashing with the public dialogue of denial that’s in fashion
what do you now see my prescient soul a world that is scared yet loudly condemning your role contradiction abounds around what’s believed and is told but you won’t close your mind your mouth or be controlled because the need is the need of a world being sold
where ascendant rejections of science’s findings carry weight disproportionate to tomorrow’s unwinding and the hope that was youth falls to systemic undermining I hope that you stand up to the relentless grinding for across the world there are still people who need you to attack all the arguments of denial so feeble they still rise to smother the planet in chaos and evil but for your pluck and your courage your ability to needle it does provide a check with words that are real and challenges others to rise too and reveal the lies and deception the denialists conceal I hope and I wish you can change how they feel
what will you say next our young assertive one
If you didn't pick it up the rhythm is sort of set to Bob Dylan's A Hard Rain's Gonna Fall
Where did that government find such murderous intent imprisoning and shooting their own wherever they went exercising ruthless summary force while advising its citizens they have no choice
venomous lies from forked tongues they let rip their smirking mouths toxic with poisonous lips vile spittle sprayed from the lips of autocracy blurs the vision of the masses with talk of democracy
all the while weaponising the rule of law where justice is now held in the tight grip of a claw a new dark age is coming where information is missed where manipulated voters are swayed by each Judas kiss
We are sitting in the basement fifteen of us and a few cats and dogs the battery powered light flickering endlessly giving this dark windowless space an unsettling strobe effect we are powerless to correct
anything
there’s constant noise down here the wet wood in the furnace gathered in life risking scrambled forays sizzles spits and pops like everything above ground
the thermal fan under it turns on ever grinding stripped cogs whir, grrr, whir, grrr
such a refuge such refugees
the six month old baby grizzles persistently as her mother rocks in place mother elicits an endless suppressed yet ever audible keening cry over the child eeee, oh, eeee, ooh, ooooh
our elderly neighbour in the corner incessantly mutters unintelligibly and fossicks in his rucksack for something he never seems to find rustle, bustle, rustle
the small boys of the street wrestle spar for an activity to do until someone inevitably gets hurt accusations fly accompanied by pleading cries and whimpers for concern but there is little room for that sook sook sook
oh the irony of such violence here and now in play and then the recriminations begin all over again or it's back to the board games already fought over and played dozens of times
or back to exhausted, restless sleep
the horror that has thrown us together it has lasted five days now with no end in sight I mean how would we know we have no radio if there was if there is any end in sight?
add the horror of literally dashing and splashing to relieve yourself topside before something or someone gets you in one way or another
the horror of what you see while you are out there exposed and defenceless amongst the snipers the stray ordinance the wreckage the carnage, the bodies and body parts the smoke and the smell you can't get rid of any of it the imagery burnt into your retinas the stench of burnt everything embedded in your nostrils the burns on your skin your very own smouldering soul
two young girls push toy cars and trucks around the room filling them with anything they can that will support a story of some sort to overcome their fear you never know how it will manifest next as they fret, fidget, fuss, fume or fuse
we all stare at the floor most of the time except for the brief apprehensive looks heavenward, to the ceiling with every new global shudder of our tiny enclosed world we know where we are yet we are lost we are buried I wonder will we be buried here? in our own reality show live tombing what will that be like?
CRUMP!
is it that noise that bothers most? or is it the ripping and tearing of metal and wood like live cardboard screaming until it also is finally dead and still all movement defeated all creaks silenced all purpose gone with the wind
the exploding windows the thumps and whumps of trees and structures unknown falling to the earth the wild crackling and detonation arcing earthing power lines writhing like electrocuted psychotic snakes the searing howling jet stream that is simply the roar of wind generated by wildfire and wild fire the small arms fire rippling like saucepan popping corn the convulsive impacts of guided bombs drones missiles random artillery or the moments of deathly silence when it all stops when the next set of questions begin do we venture out with hope? or do we continue to wait to still sit still in this basement of dread
our will to endure fading fading deeper into despair
our fading resilience a fading of body and mind
we can see in our minds eye the fading of our ink from every record of us there ever was as we fade from presence and the present and from remaining data banks we fade from existence as surely as every other ordinary person is knowingly or carelessly erased by war
I searched for the river to slake desperate thirst
I thought it was somewhere around here
I thought I smelled water but I remained cursed
every turn brought simply more tears
I toiled through the scrub on my knees as a first
I soon began to smell fear
the dry of my throat and my eyes were the worst
but I still felt there was water around here
my effort was flagging my heart fit to burst
lost I scrambled and crawled for life dear
then I heard a tinkle with cracked lips pursed
I stopped to listen and peer
was I tricked, in illusion immersed?
no, there
a gleam through the woods did appear
and I rose and I ran and the wild things dispersed
as I charged and leapt logs like a deer
all the pain and the doubt that I had nursed
vanished like fog from a weir
disappeared in that moment I felt myself blessed
I found water deep, cool and clear
and I dived right in, water up to my chin
I drank and rejoiced in the swim
and I swore in that water
that life giving elixir
no wrong would I e’er do again
The people are raining in bits and blobs the rain is red bled tears and sobs the people are flying up through the sky arcing like rag dolls to heights very high the thunder is frightening the lightning is death the people are dying taking last breaths fleshy lumps are dropping back to their berth with fractured bones falling to rattle the earth the children are worst as their bodies burst with each new detonation another curse as the soldiers wade through the carnage they create claiming it’s orders no difference can they make instructions come from those sitting above but the executioners fit in with them hand in glove while mothers cry and fathers weep some bodies may heal but other scars run deep and the harm ensures an eye for an eye more and more people will rain from the sky
Melissa’s dVerse prompt for we poets today references the surrealism of Rene Magritte. I chose the painting Golconda (1953) of raining men to address the terrible wars around the globe and our repeated failure to learn the lessons of history.
Angel carry your heavy payload until god asks for it one day Angel bitter, discard your halo throw it worlds away
Angel fly to heaven above dive to hell below Angel receive peace from a dove or scavenge it from a crow
Angel weep soul deep until your very last breath Angel sleep the long sleep pray yourself to death
Angel just Angel lust Angel thrust Angel sing Angel cling Angel wring Angel must Angel bust Angel dust Angel wing left wing right wing broken wing
Angel nothing
The dVerse prompts from Melissa today were inspired by Kurt Cobain’s birthday. I chose to take one line from a Nirvana song and reflect on the feelings that might drive a suicide. It was a harrowing exercise and I am sorry if it causes hurt. https://dversepoets.com/2024/02/20/happy-birthday-kurt🎉/
Watching the moon, grey dust, hard stone. Why won’t the moon leave me alone? I watch to see if the old man there, will he ever release me from his stare. I dream the moon will fall to earth, moon’s death rattle, our deadly curse.
The sun has got to do something about that moonish sneer on that moon face snout before kamikaze moon’s suicidal spiral rings our bells and rattles our bones, shakes and quakes our earthly home. Mr Moon up there is become one with hell, the Devil’s doing, a catastrophic bombshell.
Ashes to ashes, dust to dust I watch the moon I must I must!
It is winter in the dead good night. Rage against the dying light. God leaves with the day, be awake in fright. Abandoned, his flock cringe at their plight. Their church spears the sky with its needle like steeple. But the sky remains deaf to the needs of the people. Houses are blinded by shuttered, windowless eyes. The village is drowned under darkening skies. It lies in the bleak blackness, isolated from peace. Weatherbeaten by cold, grinding poverty and a universal desire for release.
The exhausting smell of brutalised lives, lived less, and known to be so, comes in through the cracks in the walls, the roof, the dirty, broken window panes and under the doors. Coal smoke and dust crusts up the chimneys and smudges the air. Existence is spare.
Suppressed as lust, here wishes are flights of fancy, lost as soon as the ideas form. They are consumed by the eternal loss of hope. Everywhere. The great consumer of dreams.
It is a wooden door that opens directly onto the street. This one, once painted bright blue now feeling blue on the cusp of being unhinged. Neither entrance nor exit, because there is nowhere to go. With a tarnished and scratched brass letter slot in it that flaps when the post man drops in yellowed paper letters with postage stamps and addresses written in inky scrawls or flourishes that always ask for money. It flaps with the icy northern winds of every arctic blow, whistling through the passageway, biting to the bone, settling in each room as a resented guest. Taking the heat from the meagre fire - if there is one, robbing the heat from the few embers of scavenged sticks and coal scrapings in the cast iron stove, extracting the heat from conversation rendering it chill, penetrating ill fitting clothes, darned and redarned woollen socks, underwear, vests, scarves and second layer overcoats.
The smell of fried gristle and butcher’s sweepings sausages comes in from the small mean kitchen in the back of the house with it’s chipped laminate table and chairs so tired they lean against each other to continue standing on legs that have been battered so long they are always threatening to break. Lower limbs splintered and scraped by generations of careless sitters. No one ever takes any notice. Table and chairs hug the wall in fear of losing the only thing they have to left to hold on too. They have learnt the lessons of the other inhabitants well. Oh, and tonight the roadkill is in the pot and the lying is done to their lot as a distraction from the truth where rats, pigeons, stray pets and their like only have benefit if they can be cooked. Foraged herbs from nearby roadsides pretend to add flavour. Bitter dandelion tea washes down the tough, sinewy meat. Grumbling bellies yet again greet the night.
The inhabitants soon leave the kitchen with little room to skin another cat, ever squeezing on each other to get by. Grunting their “Excuse me”s as potent unwashed bodies brush past without ever noticing the rancid odour. The Jonses and the Jenkins, the slag and the heaps. In the barely candlelit gloom, they meet again in the halls to rise creaking up the bare narrow stairs to the bare narrow bedrooms of worn thin bedding on narrow flat wooden bunks and groaning cast beds. No mattress of note mind, just a bundle of rags from the previous occupants, now long dead and gone. What was their name? Oh well, it doesn’t matter does it? Names have no bearing. Your name will not keep you alive in this world, or the next.
So they will not go gentle into that good night. Into any night. They will struggle through another where adults live a chronic morbid existence, stunted children play listless games of hopelessness and cruelty - death may always come early. Death shall have its dominion.
telling stories of phantom glories looking over her shoulder smirking until I cry beating on the table playing I Spy wondering who’s there saying it’s fine working in montage death and decline definitely hers probably mine twitching of the wrist pumping of the fist batting of the eyelids passionate kiss vicious kick full cheek lick what makes her tick she’s a bomb
I sobbed while I banged my head on the dock I lit the fuse tick tock tick rock With nowhere to go I ran amok because I knew no one gave a fuck
and my children died inside the conflagration while outside I died as a witness stationed to watch this act as the ultimate martyr from lover to mother to miserable failure
now my babies don’t suffer anymore don’t you see? their loss was my hope for my babies three their release from torment my relief and my grief I their life giver corrupter and thief
I scratched at the doors where help is the word I pleaded for help and not one cry was heard I make no further excuses for this desperate crime judge me oh judge me and I’ll do my time
but I urge you who judge to stop and reflect on the festering harm of abuse and neglect on how absence of care equals opportunity cost from pitiful existence my babies were lost
I’m feeling a little bruised a little rushed a little used when you turn your whip like tongue on me a little crushed and very confused
when you say that I’m not worth it yet you keep on coming back I decide that I’ll stick with it and then you call me slack
yes I’m a sucker for punishment my friends all tell me that but really I’m a sucker for nourishment I pray for it after every spat
I hate you and I love you I tell you and relent then you diss me and you kiss me never knowing what each one meant
you don’t hit me or spit on me you don’t go out with another you just discard me like a soiled rag whenever you think I’m a bother
then you take me back when it suits knowing you'll always have the boots to stand over me til I breakdown to abuse me when I meltdown
I crave to be better, yet I'm a weak nag always with one hand reaching for an escape bag but I turn back from every open door I pathetically keep coming back for more
then as I slide down every jamb lamb to slaughter, slaughtered lamb self esteem slides with me, to the floor we sag and I gag and I gag and I gag
I see myself for what I have become I know I'm not the only one It isn't something helpful to know others also powerless if they stay, powerless to go
She was translucent in that you could see her much as you could see anyone else in the reflected light of the sun. But even more so because that very light, the light of the sun, seemed to penetrate her flawless fair skin as if the silky smooth surface was entirely opaque. It gave her a subtle inner incandescence, slightly phosphorescent with those self emitting hints of blues and greens that warmly peaked in her eyes and the waves of cascading hair. Her teeth showed it gently sparkling through in a radiant white smile, as did her fingernails and earlobes adorning hands and face with beckoning ripples of a delicate halo. Also, it appeared to come out the other side of her as a a soft white aura. One that flowed behind her like a short comet tail. Present, but never quite seen. Gently wavering before your eyes fully caught on. A ripple across space. In such a way you knew of its definitive presence despite its elusiveness.
Everyone wanted to know her. Absolutely, and me more than most. She gave me a feeling of desperate hunger - for what I could never be quite sure. It felt like I could be satisfied with just ..... a look from those penetrating eyes, a touch with those sensuous long fingers, any form of acknowledgement. However, I also recognised unreality when I saw it. In reality I wanted everything she would never give and that scared the shit out of me.
For a long time I had longed for her from afar. Drained of other interests, preoccupied with dreams of passionate love and warm companionship. Yet whenever I got close I found I had only a faded shadow of myself to offer. Dulled. Stultified by her imposing mien.
Standing in a dark space she exuded a glowing presence. Her very own unique light. Standing in a light space she somehow overcame the ambient lux with her very own lustre. She could not be unseen.
So, I watched from a distance instead. The best thing I could ever have done as I saw one friend, champion, lover, partner, suitor and sycophant after another get irreparably burned. Scorched to the point of disfigurement by a desirable body and a vital heart, a quick brain and a ruthless mind, an unsolvable enigma beyond anybody’s ken. Eventually, I understood that for all the attraction of that internally lit, beautiful, vibrant, illuminated woman, her translucence meant no matter how close you got, no matter how hard you tried, no matter what you applied - I and no one else could or would ever see into her, just right through to the other side.
This was an infatuation I would survive, but even today, years later, the mystery, the hope, the longing, the anticipation and speculation have never fully subsided.
the long grass dead brown the short grass stunted green faded blue skies with no summer bright sheen
grey come the clouds hanging low overhead heavy with moisture that will drop like lead
the air has a bite bitter snaps each night and each day frosted crisp icy as any day has been
the cold sodden earth awaits its rebirth fresh food supplies border on lean
as breath mists the air those rugged up don't care but the strugglers blanch at the scene
winter cold eats budgets of those who can’t afford it where constant warmth is but a seasonal dream
homeless under bridges in doorways and niches families living in cars huddle away unseen
as others drive over bridges secure in their riches to homes warm inner glow where no want has been
The dVerse prompt today came from Sanaa. She asked we poets to recognise August. We in the southern hemisphere may see it in a different seasonal light to that which Sanaa had in mind. However, one sad thing we do have in common around the world is the widening gap between the haves and have nots.
Precedence is chance The roll is a fast chaotic dance
The die is cast numbers spin Will luck outlast the spin I’m in?
The dotted faces turn and prop bounce and hop My future turns on fortune’s stop
Excitement Anticipation Fulfilment or suffocation
Desperation Indecision High risk taking recidivism
Bound for glory is my folly Wracked and ruined that’s my story
Highs feed lows on pure vainglory
Today’s dVerse prompt from Ingrid was for a subject of each poet’s choosing. This one came from a draft I had on gambling, a subject I have been trying to get my head around.
Juliet
is all slick and wet
her long hair in her eyes
she has been hit
by an idiot
drunk driving by
bye bye
Romeo
roams idly by
sees the girl on the ground
He looks at her
quizzically
then realises what he has found
Juliet
breathes in gasps
as blood pools under her back
She looks up sees Romeo
last look last love
as limbs go slack
Romeo’s
not much you know
but this time
things are different
He wipes the hair from glazed eyes
and wonders where
her life went
Juliet
rises above the scene
She watches Romeo
He cradles her head
gently in his lap
He whimpers out a moan
Romeo
struck by love’s full fist
his only love has gone
He whines he weeps
at his loss
Death into his soul creeps
Juliet
bears final witness to
Romeo’s last testament
“Did my heart truly love till now?”
he whispers
For the first time
he knows what love meant
“Good night Good night”
“Thus with a kiss I too die”
He declares to her
death pale face
Romeo
bends his head down
tenderly brushes her cold lips
with his own
he lets her head down
lightly beside him
as he lies quietly beside her
takes her right hand
with his left
Romeo
from his pocket
retrieves a knife
meant for other men
he eases the blade
between his ribs
it finds his broken heart
As blood pools under his back
his life is also gone
Juliet
utters one last cry of grief
before she disappears
or was that one last cry of relief
in hope he reappears
for never was there a story of more woe
than this of Juliet and her Romeo