Journey of my heart
Cruel and toxic broken part
Black heart poison dart


My self inflicted trauma is become a deep dark relentless melancholy. I fall dizzyingly into omnipresent guilt. With you I became a madman without you nothing no one. 

Your pain my journey of meaninglessness. An ever increasing  blank space of loneliness my destination. I steadily fade from the light until I am no longer visible at all. My self destruction. 

I could not save myself even if I wanted to. I descend to my end. I spiral into a cycle of self loathing and misery. I am left ever alone in the company only of justifiable self contempt and vitriolic spite.  

My own worst enemy. Your worst enemy. Me. 

I will never recover from what I did to you. In my heart only jealousy. In my possessiveness only violence. A masquerade of love. 

My black heart to blind to see. A journey to your death was always a journey to my death.
Now willingly. 


Approaching my death
Is no natural cycle
I made this happen

A response to Frank’s d”Verse Haibun prompt “journeying”.