The mountain ahead was a really big deal with trees on its flanks but few flat green fields up on the ridges were sharp flinty stones this was the path I must travel alone all through my young life I believed what they said crossing the mountain was folly many ended up up dead
I dreamed of the mountain most every night in my dreams of the mountain I looked up and took flight over the mountain I did range I did soar over the mountain I sought release from remorse I scoured the slopes and I scoured the crown but I saw little and little I found my dreams fell shattered and broke on the ground I determined I must climb by foot from the town
I wandered for days on flat lands for a time before reaching the base of the mountainous climb the gentle foot hills were covered with flowers the meadows were rich I crossed them in hours the mountain itself was immediately steep the forest was thick the scree cut my feet I had to use switchbacks many miles for a few only meters in altitude gained daily as I drew toward the top of the mountain’s ragged sharp peak in crisp snow and cold air were answers I did seek
I reached the summit with its razor sharp edge I looked on the other side from a dizzying ledge and what did I find on this remote outlook enough for a page enough for a book I found enough to shake me and to realise that my thinking was blinkered by my very own lies
my remorse was false a craven escape from fear of the truth in me now awake I had thought it would be different on the other side but all I discovered was another brutal slide and that I did not need to climb to be true I needed to scramble all the way back down to you to say I am sorry for the harm that I did to understand the hurt that occurred when I fled I am sorry for the struggle the wounds that I gave I beg for forgiveness if there is any to be saved
It has been too long without you There has been too much time Worlds lie between us As I pay for my crime
My cell is my world of four hard walls
Spartan and bare
My memory is my cell forever I keep seeing you there
As each long long day passes .....
My sentence every minute
Gives way to darkness My loss lies within it
When I look through my barred window I expect in some light To see you running towards me Again my mind at flight
I pace I groan squat in the corners
Of this tiny space
Close and open my eyes And still see your face
I see you on the day as lovers we were wed I see you in the night on the matrimonial bed I see us on every outing all the things we did I see us laughing and loving as besotted kids I see your auburn fringe and wavy locks I see your long legs above bobby socks I see your bright blue eyes black long lashes I see your olive skin the smile that flashes I feel you in my arms in the softest embrace I remember all your charms I feel my disgrace
Where is your world now my love And is he there with you No I am not proud my love If I could bring you back I’d kiss you
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