when they cut me open what did they find
a withered heart and a troubled mind
my broken engine with its oil black
muscles and sinews weak and slack
a shrivelled soul extinguished of hope
a brain of mush from alcohol and dope
I knew what was coming so I preempted death
with a listless overdose an easy last breath
with death I claimed release from a life
of never ending misery trouble strife
judge me not I did the best I could
homeless familyless and never any good