Hurt

God it hurts 
to see you like this
weak and in pain
in so much distress

god it hurts
to feel you so thin
to feel your bones
where there should be fat skin

god it hurts
to wipe your pale face
to touch your cold hands
to massage your aches

god it hurts
to feed you my love
to nurse and relieve you
in plastic gloves

god it hurts
to bathe you each day
to wash your soiled body
no, I won’t go away

god it hurts
to roll you over
your strength is gone
you, my past lover

god it hurts
to see you waste
your senses fading
losing smell and taste

god it hurts
to sit by your bed
as this sickness progresses
it fills me with dread

god it hurts
to hear what you said
in your delerium
it hurts so bad

god it hurts
when you get pressure sores
you no longer move
can you take anymore?

god it hurts
when the pain relief fails
when you grimace and seize
wracked frame so frail

god it hurts
but not how it hurts you
I wish I could do more
to help you get through

god it hurts
when you don’t talk back
your eyes are dull
your jaw is slack

god it hurts
to watch your last breaths
to see your life leave us
replaced by death

god it hurts
holding you dead
your skeletal frame
with me alone on the bed

god it hurts
to kiss you good bye
on your dry cracked blue lips
last kiss, last cry?

Rain

Golconda by Rene Magritte
The people are raining in bits and blobs
the rain is red bled tears and sobs
the people are flying up through the sky
arcing like rag dolls to heights very high
the thunder is frightening the lightning is death
the people are dying taking last breaths
fleshy lumps are dropping back to their berth
with fractured bones falling to rattle the earth
the children are worst as their bodies burst
with each new detonation another curse
as the soldiers wade through the carnage they create
claiming it’s orders no difference can they make
instructions come from those sitting above
but the executioners fit in with them hand in glove
while mothers cry and fathers weep
some bodies may heal but other scars run deep
and the harm ensures an eye for an eye
more and more people will rain from the sky

Melissa’s dVerse prompt for we poets today references the surrealism of Rene Magritte. I chose the painting Golconda (1953) of raining men to address the terrible wars around the globe and our repeated failure to learn the lessons of history.

The victim

 
I knew fear
When the bully turned his attention to me
When his sneer settled into a satisfied smirk
Accompanied by a condescending glare
Comprised of evil glints behind the blackest of eyes
and a palpably hot internal furnace of anger

He knowingly appraised me
He looked into my very soul
He asked himself the unspoken questions
only I should have known the answers to,
but he determined in a instant
What vulnerability lies here?
What weakness can I exploit
to the point of causing immediate pain
and then
terrible ongoing hurt?

Thus
I became a victim
I let him use my own low self esteem
as the leverage necessary to do me harm
To render me powerless to resist
To enable me to damage myself even further
To punish myself for allowing
the damage to be done

I became complicit
in my own degradation and misery

With no one to blame but myself